me myself and i

human being tend to be selfish

2005-11-06T22:23:00.000-08:00

hmm sorry for not blogging for very long.. been the holiday haven been doing much eat sleep.. hahas.erm... oh manage to borrow the korean show from my aunt YEA! that the way hahas.. so happy ..many thing happen.. dunnoe just felt people tend to act infront of u yet maybe behind u think i am talking about u do REFLECT.but if not DUN BE OVER SENSITIVE PLEASE! yupx...=) no comments onis someone else..man. hmmm. why is human like this.. have ya ever thought of my feeling. if u who or what.oh for those who make me angry dun worry it not u la.. as i said dun be sensitve ..
one wish to that special person =)
stop acting !=)! thanks
hmmm felt better le. yupx have fun during the holidays!
CHEERIOS!

feelign so SHIT

2005-10-24T19:19:00.001-07:00

why? why? is his happening? i am such a FAILURE! people dun really study can go either express or o levels maths or chinesE? me failure!~ here and there never mad my parents proud! what the hell!!! i study like crazy i dun get anything in return!
glenys

feelign so SHIT

2005-10-24T19:19:00.000-07:00

if i had not..

2005-10-19T04:09:00.000-07:00

if i had not fall sick...i guess i will do well..
well if i really did not fall sick i may had the chance of doing better getting and able to take o levl maths! i am just so STUPID! unable to do things well! that not GLENYS!
FROm a A1 student for maths can just make it the mark! what wrong with me! i should have look after my health! not that i never study! it is i am SICK! i dun regret that but i am dissapointed in myselF! i am just so pissed with what i am doing! i have the ablity to do better not that i dun want noe i gues si dun have the chance too! why do other dun have to really stusy yet score while me studiy like till 2 am yet getting this GRADES! i dun think i deserve it!
almost cried when mr tiong was talking to me.. i dunnoe la. i felt so down graded. i wanred to cry but acted strong ..what can i do ! now i just feel that whats god plan for me why am i like this! i worked hard why did i not do well! why must he put me in this! make me doubt his love for me! i dunnoe feel with digusted and dissapointment inMYSELF! why why why! now i dun feel like doing anything! i want a break! i dunnoe what to do but life still got to go on.WHAT HELL WRONG WITH ME!~!!!>. encourage cause it no used already! all i can do is to wait for a MIRCALE to happen!

PISSED BY MY OWN STUPIDILITY!
glenys

SO many things happen.

2005-10-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

hmmm. many things happen during the exams period..fell really ill like 39.5 degrees burning all my cells hahas/ thanks to the lord i am ALRIGHT! cheerful as before/./heheex.. exams are about to end for me actually i should say major one ended,tmr is my art paper planing what to draw..i am really dying to go shopping.. oh ya. gary was so sweet he left chicken essences and some stuff so nice for him thanks hmm.. i dunno what wrong btw us but i will leave it as it is as i dunno whatto do about it..*cough cough..still haven really recover la actually hahas. i never take my chinese paaper hope my score is ok..really wan go SHOPPING! so many things i WANT to buy! i need clothes i have become a outfit repeater abd i hate that!! humph!! hmm...timm thanks for your offer of help when u said u wanted to pass me some liang tea but was so sick and weak cannot walk also.. i also cannot decide what i want take next year as subjects.. everyone thinks i should take POA since i was good in maths..
to be honest ba..
this few day been thinking about this special someone he did hurt me in the pass but i did cherish every sec i spent with him actaully i missed his COMPANY but my pride tells me if i go back i will be a loser! haix.. dunnoe la.. hope things chages for better.. i really miss talkign to him on the phone.. when we sat at bus top when we first held hands do many things! i just want tell u i MISS u.. (what wrong with u glenys!!)
i dunnoe la!! haiz.. really confused! alrigth i dunnoe what i doing who i am what i want. i only noe study then can go shopping alright i will stop here.. no personal message but i want say i miss that special some one.. dun ask who he will noe it himself i hope he does...sorry to have hurt u too..i just needed time to heal me deep inside...and i just wanted to stay single as my heart was in a ver unstable sate..guess u have moved on in life wished u the best but i still miss u..

*cough cough..
glenys

dun live in regret

2005-09-23T19:59:00.000-07:00

A TOUCHING STORY THAT TOUCHED MY HEART..
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why
11th grade The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Graduation Day A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.FuneralYears passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

HAPPY BITHDAY TO U ..JULIEN..BESTIES CUM SISTERS FOREVA

TO him*
i have nothing else more to say about u..

SORRY EVERYONE FOR NOT BLOGGING MUCH.. i really am mugging liked crazy and had no time for it.. hahas.. will blog as long i am free okie as promised..and i feel in love and am crazy about DERRICK HOH WEI JIAN!! i love ya..=)

singing off..
freestlish

beacuse of you

2005-09-15T15:52:00.000-07:00

BECAUSE OF YOU
SPEECHLESS .. guess will not blog much just a few words just for him

*to him

I will not make the same mistakes that you didI will not let myself cause my heart so much miseryI will not break the way you didYou fell so hardI've learned the hard way, to never let it get that farBecause of youI never stray too far from the sidewalkBecause of youI learned to play on the safe sideSo I don't get hurtBecause of youI find it hard to trustNot only me, but everyone around meBecause of youI am afraidI lose my wayAnd it's not too long before you point it outI cannot cryBecause I know that's weakness in your eyesI'm forced to fake a smile, a laughEvery day of my lifeMy heart can't possibly breakWhen it wasn't even whole to start withBecause of youI'll never stray too far from the sidewalkBecause of youI learned to play on the safe sideSo I don't get hurtBecause of youI find it hard to trustNot only me, but everyone around meBecause of youI am afraidI watched you dieI heard you cryEvery night in your sleepI was so youngYou should have known better than to lean on meYou never thought of anyone elseYou just saw your painAnd now I cryIn the middle of the nightFor the same damn thingBecause of youI never stray too far from the sidewalkBecause of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurtBecause of youI tried my hardest just to forget everythingBecause of youI don't know how to let anyone else inBecause of youI'm ashamed of my life because it's emptyBecause of youI am afraidBecause of youBecause of you..

mugging off..
glenys

TIRED..

2005-09-14T16:46:00.000-07:00

tired...
part 1 : i am tired of everything. school, life,friends, the things i enjoyed most, the person i admire..
i wonder why am i like this? i am unable to concentrate on my studies???? why is that so? i dunno ! guess will break down anytime.. i am sick and having a split headache like no one problem.. yesterday felt so freaking hell stress walk arounf the place i lived.realised how much i missed some one 's company..somehow i wonder will the person do the same as me?altought me and gary are still friends he still encourages me.. so touch by his message..

"Stars may fall,wind may flow through.dAy and night pass like a flightbut whatever it takes, a guy right here wull do his best to bring her glads.you shine like light from the sun and every dark areas tries to hide,she is cheerfuland so beautiful.never let anything block her happiness for the guy here will do his best to remove it."
a message send by gary

gary thanks for it ..hmm felt better and a great WOW! to u hahas..

part 2: yesterday i waited for that *him to call somehow he did not.. haiz..nvm la. i guess i really got to understand and i chose a path which might bring lots hurt but i will be strong and do what i can.i have no idea what wrong with me? maybe i am over stressed that leads me to this way.... some how i just wished everything will be alright and someone who will be really there for me?

*to him
although we did not talk i dun blame u.i am sorry that all i can say. lost of words and speechless..

*to julien.
i am sorry for not attending the inter - class games as firstly i am really having a spilt headache. secondly i cannot concentrate been think alot.. third is i dun wan pull the class down cause of my selfishness of playing..

*to my class
sorry..

*to my peeps
past few day been only talking about myself and not listening to others i am sorry..

lost of words..
- speechless-
glenys..

MISSING SOME ONE TOUGH!

2005-09-13T01:41:00.000-07:00

HMMM... today i am so tired planning to blog then eat sleep wake up then study then talk to him. haha. hmmm. i am like missing this special someone lol. waited for his message yet he never reply or even bother to message or call.. so worried. realised missing someone is really painful! haiz.. been telling my clicks that i was missing someone ! haiz yupx.. yesterday we talk to like 1.30 am? hmmm. we beenn talking 3 days none stop till 1am plus! hahas. if this continues i will be so happy!! hahas. i realised about the commitment to me and him kinda worked yesterday we kept playing hahas.. so funny!!! hahas.. today will not blog much really EXHAUSTED! had a long day in school thought today geography could watch the day after tmr the movie but not enough time and mrs yeo forgotten to bring hahas.. was really looking forward to it. hmm. now i think back about that day he gave me the surprises i will keep smiling and never forget! hahas.then geo lesson was beat boxing in class for fun and got derek punished by teacher for SHOUTING!hahas. i felt really bad so apologised liao.. hahas.. sorr DEREK! hahas
alright will stop here ..

*to him
i am missing your company. i wonder if one day with out u i will feel so lonely .. u are my sunshine which i do enjoy it. hope i never troubled u with anything put just hope u will promised whatever u promise and do it as promised! hmmm..erm..i am so afraid that u would somehow avoid me so SCARED! never wan this very day to come AGAIn! never going to allow history to repeat itself! i do miss u and your lame joke and of course company!! u take care call me asap and message!

siging off..
glenys

first day of term 4

2005-09-12T17:08:00.000-07:00

hahas.today school was alright had good rest talk to him till 1.11 am and yupx slep.oh ya i make a commitment to him that every night before we talk i would at least study 2 hours hope i will be able to that!! hahas.he kept his promises yes!! hahas hmmm.. fel was i think down abotu family matter yupx but she is strong and i will be there for her cause i love her! hahas=)yupx she is like the one who understands me..hehex. just wished the best for her that it!=)smile k felicia always remeber i am here!=)there no need to fear for i am here! hahas.
yupx had great fun with him name him B2 i think and me B1 somehow i keep forgetting but love the great FUN!! hahas.yupx haven really talk to him yet so cannot blog muchbut I AM BLOGGING NOW IS BECAUSE I HAVE TO STUDY LATER!!hahas. or else i dun get to talk to him! commitment soen how still not used to this key board so got errors sorry i prefer my labtop but it is down!! anyway! he is so funny!!! hahas. i begin to love that bitter thingy he gave so werid taste but interesting in the same time.. hahas. guess will be having a short nap before i start studyibg but going to talk to him first yupx.. anw dunn why my eyes got red and slightly swollen! so ugly! no one want liao!! haix..hehex sorry very silly la me hahas
to julien the barcode that u have drawn on my hand is still there!!finally he tagged! thanks
sorry for not blogging much but all i had i pen down le so dun blame me hehex.=)

*to him
hmmm. still haven gotten over yesterday so today day was great cause u brighten up my life that i had the mood to study and really wanna work hard ! thansk dude!! hahas..as for it tell me your comments on my message and stuff la alright..
HAVE FUN READING
signing off
silly glenys =) smile always

the most memorable day of my life!

2005-09-11T05:17:00.000-07:00

alright! my day was so cool!! hahas....it all started yesterday talk to him..then i was so sick and coughed like crazy and sneeze..hahas...hmmm.. then was talking in him from2 am to around like 3 am .. and he promised o read my bloggy!! hahas. anw realised he likes green and so do i ..so yupx so chosed my front GREEN!! hahas. anw we are still friends.. however he is like so caring la noe i sick then buy chinese tea and some medicine i call it so help the throat ya so CARING!! hahas..i was like erm.. @ aound 6 i was watching channel 8 then he message me are u at home i said yup then he say good i asked why.he asked me meet him at bukit batok hahas..then i went bukit batok found him standing there reading his book cause tmr got PRELIMs and i do appreciate he spent time making me feel better hahas.=) then we chatedx took pic he loook great mr frog prince i was so jealour he looked so cutE and me got to act hahas.. i was laughing like crazy there and he say u noe what i do enjoy seeing u laughing i was HUH!!! CRAZY!! hahas.then started laughing agian.. hahas. then he hold my hand and drag me to the lift cause he needed to go home and how i wished time would stop but anyway then i was trying to get out of it but he was so strong and drag me right into the lift and next he pressed 10 which i live then i so smart pressed 7 8 9 then u noe what i tried to get out ! soFUNN!!! so THRILLING!@@!! dun do this hahas. then erm ya thats all so cool huh? and wait i never go church dad mom said i was lazy but i was SICK! hahas..i saw my DREAM car the one that was in herbie but was a sliver car!! hahas..

*to him(if u are ever going to read this hehex)
thanks for everything u had done and was indeed a surprise for me and i do enjoyed the time spent with u however i still treat u as A FRIEND!! yes hahas.. so no worries and i do really like this friendship and of course how i wished time would stop when we sit to chat and stuff..hahas.hope u kept your promised to come to this bloggy of mine and of course call me okie!! hahas

signing off..
freestylish deejay glenys cum miss energy=)

first entry!

2005-09-10T05:30:00.000-07:00

hahaS.. TODAY MY FIRST ENTRY!!yeepy!! hahas..first need thank my beloved joyyie for layout and those who have tag i am sorry ok..hahas.hmmm.today saturday school reopening like so soon! hahas..miss my felicia!! hahas... hmmm. the holida was good. plan my study time did alot shopping.bought lots of stuff..hmmm..let me share what i bought first 3 quarter pants,2 op skirts,5 blouses,a bikini, new pair of shiny shoes,a ribbon belt..spent kinda lot..haven really been studying la..but ya..guess really and serious stuff starts officially MONDAY!! hahas.. so now relax first..=)but yesterday some what studied till 3 am for home econs.. hahas..next morning i wake up my home econs bookie was on my face! stupid i remember i never off light then about 6 am check message and the light was off guess was mama.. hahas..was messaging him!! hahas..kinda miss him cause never talk for days.. like 20 days.. so surprise he message me ..that he is sorry for what he has done..hahas..but it alright glad everytime okie.. but somehow i lost control and scolded him thru my messages ..dear he if u read my entry i am sorry for scolding ya okie? hahas.. but glad now we are GOOD friend.hmmm..yupx..i will try to fix that little cute thingy penguin and promise put in all my hard work as a gift to u alright?just hope nothing in the future will happen to this friendship of ours. and i will take all course to save this
*important friendship caUSE IT IS ONE IN A MILLON!!
hahas..man i am crazy however he is going to encourage me in my studies and i will be the listening ear to all his problem face..how i just wished i was a fairy that could grant u no worries so that u will live happyily ever after but somehow i am just not one!! boohooo...oh ya..during the holidays xinyi not from my class butt from chij girls came to my house and stayed over!! we had lots of fun..she borrows me ZARa skirt hahas. that fix nicly on her and pins earing and stuff lol.. hope she return so hahas..but it was great fun having a all girl night ..she one owe and a batman hahas.. but anww...erm.. we went shopping buy bikinis together mine orange her green hahas.. i wan go SUNTAN!! hahas.. so eagar to ...hmm...however holiday ending shall study hard and then go after the exams..i have made a strong commitment to myself and i promised him i will study hard no matter under what circumstance or what so ever i will do my best! and he promised to bring me out ! like bring a little girl out hahas..=)sorry dude..er.. i did okie for my 3rd term. 3a1 and 3 a2 and a 4 for my english..hmmm.however he promised to get me something YEA!!!!(cannot wait) hahas..cannot wait! just so happy we are back together as good friends..never going to aviod me agian!! hahas...

**to him..
if u ever going to read this i am really sorry ..i should have been more understanding about your suituation in your life. but somehow i really wanna help u ..but i feel so lost and dunno how.so i make it a must to pray for god's guidians over u .u may be happy but to me this is not happiness...to me it is something that pulling u back form REAL happiness..and one thing remember i am 24/7 there for u ..so i just hope this friendship of ours dun just end but instead become something important to our life..and i really do feel comfortable being with u .. just somehow i dunnoe why but just like that and be happy everyday that what i wish for u and all the best for your O level and remeber u said after your prilim u we would study together and i trust u that a promised to u to me okie?
signing off...
miss energy glenys hehex.

glenys

2005-08-13T23:21:00.000-07:00

lalalalas. testing.